Depression - The List

- Poetry - 

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1. Played Pokemon Sapphire for about 6 hours.
2. Taught my niece that apples grow from flowers.
3. Ate a rad sandwich and chocolate ice cream.
4. Couldn’t remember the last night I had nice dreams.
5. Artfully crafted a snake from green play-dough.
6. Made some PB & J’s with Millie for the road.
7. Watched 3 or 4 episodes of the Amazing Race.
8. Wondered for a while about leaving this place.
9. Half-assed some thoughts about how I’ve grown.
10. Savored the time I had home alone.
11. Wished my anxiety wasn’t stuck on repeat.
12. Think I’ll need 5 or 6 Benadryl to get to sleep.
13. Briefly debated if I should finish reading that book.
14. Then wandered to the internet for just a “quick look”.
15. Ate some yogurt with a spoonful of raspberry jam.
16. Racked my brain to remember the last time I ran.
17. Avoided looking at pictures of my late dog.
18. Pondered the way my friend thinks of God.
19. Just realized now that I was supposed to call that friend.
20. Guess I’ll reschedule…again.
21. Avoided talking to several people I should.
22. Avoided dealing with several feelings I should.
23. Avoided crossing off important things on my list.
24. Instead I went to the splash pad with the kids.
25. Had a vague feeling there was something I needed to do.
26. Had way too hard a time rhyming with “do”.
27. Made this stupid list to try and pass as a poem.
28. I’m just full of shit, malarkey, nihilism, and hokum.